Everyone is having their own version of a fairy tale story - about love and career- with a happy ending just around the corner. And here I am stuck with a horror story where the I am abducted by a dream-sucking monster and waiting to be rescued.

God, ano po bang plano niyo sa akin? sa buhay ko? :( Yung feeling ko ngayon kasi, napag-iiwanan ako ng mga kaibigan ko; tsaka they seem to have it easy with their lives. Napapagod na ko pakinggan yung mga problema nila na parang hindi naman problema, tapos iniiyakan pa nila. They've been given awefully beautiful options in life, that I wish I had. I don't mean to be insensitive.. I'm just really tired and angry as well, cause nothing seems to be happening in my life. I know that, it's me who's suppose to make it happen,to make something happen, but I just seem to be lost.. and I can't even talk about this concern with my friends, cause they are so caught up with their own effing petty problems. I just hope they know how lucky they are that their mind-blowing problems are just really petty in real life. I also hope that they are thankful that that's those are the problems they have. I am thankfull aswell that my problems are my problems cause they're pretty petty compared to the rest of the world.

God whatever your plan is.. I'll wait patiently for it to unfold.. I hope we're on the same track here, but if I'm not, if I'm lost, please God, lead me to the right path. Please :(

Internship year this year, then after that there's the board exams, then after where do I go? I still have that option to go into MedSchool, but I'm not quite sure that's where I am supposed to go. Right now, I want to travel the world and literally go places. But that's another too selfish dream. I have to decide where I'll be going where in it'll benefit my family as well. 

I have three options: MD, Canada/LA/NY, stay here and work. 

Everytime I hear my friends talk about MD, I feel jealous, envious even; even though I have that option, I just.. I don't know.. I really am just not sure... I'm not sure if it's really for me, but don't get me wrong I still want to be an MD, part of me still wants to pursue that dream. Especially now that there's sponsors for my MD education and my parents support me, it's there, I can actually pursue it without worrying about the finances. I just.. I've told my friend who is sort of in the similar situation that maybe it's still for us (me), but it's not for us (me) right now. NOT NOW MAYBE LATER :) 

Then there's migrating. I'm leaning towards this option, cause it's hitting two birds with one. I get to travel and literally go places and then I get to work and actually earn for me and my family. It's actually a win-win situation. I have places to stay to the places I'll be going to, so lodging isn't really a problem. It's actually just the paper works, requirements and of course the actual job that I need to have. So yeah the big chunk for this option to work is what is missing, so yeah...

Talking about this I think I have already made my decision... I just... I don't know why the hell I am confused...

Gah. For now I just really have to just focus on INTERNSHIP.

GOD HAS A PLAN; whatever it is I hope I'm on the right path on His plan.